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Jespah
05-20-2007, 06:07 PM
Riley has been very much on my mind this last week as it was a year ago that she started to get sick. I’ve wanted to get her on the site and haven’t had time, but am making the time so she can “be” here with us now.

Riley was my first dog and my first Corgi. I waited a long time to get a dog to make sure that he or she would fit in my lifestyle – working single gal. After a friend did it, I realized my life could only be better with a dog. I have loved Corgi’s since I met one in 1979 when I lived in Australia for a year. Friends had one, and although I grew up with St. Bernard’s, I thought this little dog was terrific – they stuck in my mind for all that time and when in 2000 I decided to “get off the pot” and get a dog, I researched Corgi characteristics and knew they were the breed for me.

It took weeks to find a breeder that would sell a pup to a single working gal living in an apartment, then the disappointment of a false pregnancy, then the 9 weeks after they were finally born from a different dog – I thought I’d burst with anticipation and excitement and finally she was mine.

We went through puppy kindergarten, and two levels of obedience and she was a great little learner – coming in first in all of her classes and winning the love of others she met along the way. She was my girl though – she would not stand for even having someone else taking her leash when we were out. When she was a year and a half old, I brought Rupert home for her to have a companion – she never really bonded with the cats. I’m not sure she was thrilled at first, as suddenly he got all the attention. They soon became close and we did everything together – our favourite thing was going to the water. Any water she could get into and chase rock splashes made her happy. I don’t know how many times I had to wade into freezing Lake Ontario to snap on her leash to get her out. Sometimes she even fell asleep standing waiting for me to throw rocks.

Last spring when Riley was five, she started being sick occasionally – which was not like her at all. I thought she had picked up a bug from the creek. After blood tests, x-rays, barium x-rays and finally surgery, we found out she had lymphoma of the bowel. It is incurable, but had the potential for remission with chemotherapy – as she was young and her spirit was very much still her own, I chose to try the chemo. I didn’t have a lot of time to make the decision and I did the best I could with the information I had at the time.

Unfortunately, after 2 treatments all of her white blood cells were destroyed and she was near death and I chose to stop treatment. I found out a week after she died that she had T cell cancer and that she never had a chance for remission. Had I known this upfront I would not have done the chemo – but you do what you have to with what you know and I don’t regret anything I did in those short weeks she was sick.

Her last month was spent between being at my friend’s cottage, the lake, the creek and the river at every opportunity I could give her. She did what she loved with Rupert and I right up until the end and that’s the best you could do for any friend.

A friend of mine, during the time Riley was ill, sent me these words from an old tv show and they became my mantra:

“Be brave, stay calm and watch for the signs”

If it wasn’t for Riley, I wouldn’t have Rupert and Jemma and I wouldn’t be here at C2bC with a great group of people who share their love for these wonderful little dogs. A number of people here saw me through losing Riley last year – and if it wasn’t for that support and kindness I would truly have been lost.

Riley, intensely waiting for me to throw a rock, Lake Ontario May 2006

http://i165.photobucket.com/albums/u70/Jespah_corgis/RileyLake.jpg

LaRositaMonita
05-20-2007, 06:12 PM
I never realized that you lost Riley so young. :( I'm glad you shared your story, and also glad that we have such a wonderful community of dog lovers here who can fully understand how you grieve, even a year later. I'm sure it helps to know that she's up there with all our lost loved ones - Katie, Pepper, my old lab Mitzie, and all the rest - playing and running and chowing down on treats at the Bridge.

sutulu
05-20-2007, 06:35 PM
Wow, Deb. It seems like just yesterday.

I remember you telling me how Rupert would defer to Riley. You both have done great in such a short period of time.

I try not to remember that Riley was so young. How unfair. She waas a beautiful girl and a great big sister to Rupes.

Go get Corgi hugs and smooches to get you thru the rough days now that it is approaching a year.

Susan

MrsGrace
05-20-2007, 06:42 PM
*teary* Oh man Deb.... big hugs for a brave gal.

Muchas love from me and mine. Thank you for sharing...
Anna

dcole
05-20-2007, 06:47 PM
Deb,

What a wonderful tribute to your beloved Riley (tears.)

Dillydoodle
05-20-2007, 07:16 PM
((((((((((((((Deb)))))))))) That is a lovely tribute to Riley.... my heart goes out to you as anniversaries are so hard, Just know that you have friends here to help you through if you need to talk or just need a shoulder to cry on... and of course you have Rupert and Jemma who will be there for you as well. Riley is at the rainbow bridge having lots of fun with her angel friends, until you meet again.

Emilie

ZdogZ
05-20-2007, 08:23 PM
Deb ~ That was a wonderful tribute to Riley. You were so lucky to have each other. Just know that we will all continue to be with you. I know come July when the anniversary of Kalli and Frosty's death comes, I'll be leaning on all of you. Lots of love and hugs to you, Deb.

MVons
05-20-2007, 11:05 PM
Hugs. I'm sure Pepper is thrilled to have Riley go after the ball in the water when Pepper would stop at the water's edge, as they play over the bridge.

Merrie

MissGambler's+Mojo'sMommy
05-21-2007, 04:30 AM
They never leave us, your post proves that, Riley is still in your thoughts, in your heart, and on your shoulder every minute of every day.

corgimom
05-21-2007, 05:58 AM
Deb,

Your tribute is beautiful and so was Riley. She has such soulful eyes. I know this is a difficult time for you as the one year anniversary of her passing approaches. It's so difficult to lose a pet at any time and especially one that was so young.

Jespah
05-21-2007, 08:45 AM
Thanks everyone for being so kind - I didn't mean to make you all sad, my life is the way it is now because of her and I'll always be grateful for that. She may have had a short life, but I can tell you that she had a great life. Some dogs have long horrible lives, so I think given the choice, short and great is better.

Deb

Merlincorgi
05-21-2007, 09:22 AM
This was such a sweet post is has taken me a little bit to be able to make a response, though still inadequate. What a treasure Riley was and is still to your life. It is so hard to loose one young like that. I know she is waiting at the bridge (or in the water under it!) for you come and throw her some more rocks in the water with that happy grin you know so well.

Penutsma
05-21-2007, 09:40 AM
*tears* Now that I can see to write......WOW! What a beautiful tribute to your baby girl. I can understand the feelings you have as I lost my beloved Jasmine last year (she was only 2.5). It's hard to lose your baby, but we do go on....

ColColt
05-21-2007, 09:46 AM
You're not suppose to get teary eyes if you're a man(so I've been told) and especially, at work. Well, Deb-you "gone and done it now"!! I feel what you are feeling and did feel during that time and hurt inside for you. Each and everyone is special and cannot be replaced but, I know you're thankful for each day you had with Riley and would give Ft. Knox to spend just one day with her once more.

I hope Rupe and Jemma live to be 25 and that you never have to experience those pains again. I know you will...just hoping you won't. So sorry and want happiness for you and your current "family" henceforth. In fact, I'll put in a request for that today.

Fluffypants
05-21-2007, 10:36 AM
Oh Deb, I can't believe a year has gone by since you lost that sweet girl. I remember it so well, as Susan said, it really does feel like just yesterday. Your tribute is beautiful. You and Rupert have come a long way since the pain of last Summer. I'm so glad that Jemma was able to help you both find joy again.

Riley will never be forgotten. She was one of a kind. A really special girl . . . just like you.+WUBCLUB+

LittlePonzo
06-02-2007, 04:13 PM
Wow Deb, I am soooo sorry. I can't tell you I know how you feel, but I am sure you are doing the very best you can to cope with all of the emotions. Riley was GORGEOUS! Her face was so intense. I am glad though that you have Rupe and Jemma to help you.